Today is exactly one month until my wedding day. Uno. Single. ONE.

I may or may not be officially panicking.

When we first got engaged I was determined that I was not going to plan all the details of my wedding right away, because I was afraid that over 14 months (kill me) my tastes and ideas would change, and I would be stuck with my early decisions. So I browsed blogs and wedding magazines, and tossed lots of ideas around. Lots of “maybe this would be fun” or “we could always do…” followed by, “we don’t need to decide now – we have tons of time!”

Well time is up, and my little hiatus from wedding planning that I took for oh – ten months – is back to bite me in the bum. One month sounds like a long time when you really think about it, but throw in a full-time job, five weekly training runs and three weekly weight workouts (that I will not skip), and all the normal last minute wedding stuff – it doesn’t leave much time for catch-up-wedding-planning.

I have a fierce and loyal team of bridesmaids and friends offering to help and keep me sane – if only I knew how to do that! But I do have faith that I’ll get it all together, even if I go slightly mad in the process. I have mapped out a schedule of the next month, pretty much down to the hour. Friends and family lookout. Last-Minute-Bride-zilla has 30 days to pull off a miracle!

All that said, I’m also just really overwhelmed emotionally. With every RSVP card we get back, I get a little more excited to see my friends and family. I have a great friend coming in from San Diego that I haven’t seen in almost two years, family coming in from all over the country, a good friend of Casey’s I haven’t gotten to meet yet – it’s actually a little daunting to think that all these people are coming to Cincinnati just for us, and I want to make sure they all have a wonderful visit. My biggest fear is that the weekend is going to fly past waaaaay too quickly, and I won’t have time to visit with everyone and take it all in. One thing at a time I guess.

With so little time left, I’m trying to keep my focus on the reason behind all this insanity. I am one hundred percent in love (obsessed) with Casey. I cannot wait to marry him. But if I have to, I will. It’s only one month, right?