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    Emily Malone

    culinary arts grad. nutrition facts lover. vegetarian chef. marathon runner. country music maniac. failed dog trainer. barre fanatic. loving mama.

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    A Look Back.



Getting to Know Our Baby.

It’s funny how much changes over the course of a pregnancy.

I found out I was pregnant during week 5, and for the many weeks that followed that I felt scared, anxious, and somewhat in denial about what it all really meant.  I knew of course that we would be having a baby, but I didn’t really feel very connected to that concept at the beginning.  It took a long time for me to get over my fears of miscarriage and complications, and start celebrating that this joyous change to our lives might actually happen.

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Once my second trimester started and my belly started to grow, I started to really feel connected to my pregnancy and the idea of having a baby, but not necessarily the baby inside of me.  There were little things that made it feel a bit more real – like finding out it was a boy, or picking a name, but most of the time I just felt like the baby was still a bit of a mysterious illusion that might not really be in there.

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And then with just a few little movements, all of that changed…

The more I waited for the kicking to start, the more anxious I got that perhaps something was wrong.  Others told me they were feeling things at 16 and 17 weeks, and while occasionally I’d think maybe I felt a tiny flutter, I was still sitting there at 21 weeks with no real kicks or movements to brag about myself.

I don’t really know when or how it all started, but as if it was suddenly overnight, I started feeling major thumps and jumps that rocked my whole stomach and made it bounce from the outside.  At first I thought I was imagining it.  And I will admit that I also thought it felt a little strange that there was something moving around inside of me.  And then it sunk in and felt absolutely amazing.

Now here I am at 25 weeks, and the kicks and bumps are all day long and all over my belly.  And even though I have felt them many times now and generally know when to expect them, they never get less exciting or feel less special.  I have learned that he will kick more after I drink ice water or eat cold cereal.  Or that if I lay down on my side I’ll usually feel him say hello when I first go horizontal.

The kicks feel like a conversation.  A connection.  Something he and I experience together that I can’t quite explain or share with anyone else.

And just like that, I feel like I know the baby inside of me.  He is mine.  I am his mom.  We are a team.  He kicks my side, and I lay a hand there to let him know I’m listening.  I’m there.  I’m protecting him.

It is truly the most incredible experience of my life, and even though he kicks all day long, each and every one makes me smile, and makes me love him just a teeny tiny bit more.

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Jess     at 2:53 pm

I’m due just a few days before you and I SO totally identify with everything you’ve been writing about this journey! So much that I often send them to my husband since you are much more eloquent than I so that he can get a small understanding; how fantastic it will be to have all of this documented.

Race ya to the finish :)

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Heather     at 4:49 pm

YES. I feel the same way. It’s amazing to feel him kicking around and when he sticks his little foot or bum out, stretching my skin, and I lay my hand on him and rub him, it’s like he’s already here and I’m patting his back, telling him I love him. It’s amazing.

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Chelsey @ Chew with Your Mouth Open     at 5:22 pm

Beautiful post! Brought tears to my eyes. :)

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Heidi - Apples Under My Bed     at 9:22 pm

This is such a beautiful post :) I am few words, just gorgeous. Heartwarming.
Heidi xo

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Heather     at 1:59 am

How beautiful and lovely! Baby Garnish is already as active as his mom and dad!

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R @ Learning As I Chop     at 4:34 pm

Thanks for the dress tips! I hadn’t considered Forever 21 but I just went to the site and they have tons of stuff!

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Kelly @foodiefresh     at 4:59 pm

So precious! And so good to know that not everyone’s experience is exactly the same. You didn’t feel like everyone else felt at 17 weeks, but your baby was healthy and the kicks came when he was ready. That’s a good thing for people to know, especially people like me who worry.

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Lindsay R.     at 5:22 pm

I love reading about your pregnancy Emily. It makes me fondly remember mine (my little guy is 2 now!), and look forward to being pregnant again in the (hopefully) near future. Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

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Kristen @ The Concrete Runner     at 9:10 am

I LOVE baby kicks! I didnt’ feel mine until about week 21, but it definitely makes me feel so much more connected to my little girl. Although, it does cause a lot of anxiety when I feel that she is not moving enough, but she always gives me a good thud to reassure me she’s OK. I never EVER get sick of feeling them, that’s for sure!

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