(…continued from part one!)
It’s hard to know where to start when writing about the first year of motherhood. It has been such a roller coaster ride, and honestly, the beginning feels so foggy now.
I have always wanted to be a mom. Certain parts of the role intimidated me – like the giving birth part, and then the whole being responsible for another human thing. I had a good bit of experience going into it. I was a nanny to an infant for the first year after college, and I also helped a lot with my little sister (ten years younger then me). So while I knew a little bit about baby care, none of that could have prepared me for the all consuming love that is motherhood.
One of the things I often though about during my pregnancy, was how I would be as a mother. I don’t mean how I would be – like good or bad – but more – what kind of mom would I be? There was a time in my life, quite a few years ago, where I struggled with a lot of anxiety. It was confusing, often scary, and many times paralyzing. It took a good bit of soul searching to resolve, but I’m happy to say that it has been behind me for a while now.
Part of that journey involved learning how to identify things that would potentially make me anxious or worried. Of course, during my pregnancy, there were countless things to worry about! But I hoped that I was mentally prepared to handle the stresses and unknowns of parenting.
Once Cullen arrived and we adapted to our new role as parents, I honestly ended up surprising myself. I have been way more laid back and relaxed about parenting than I ever expected. That’s not to say that I don’t have bad days, and don’t get super frustrated sometimes. But for the most part, I’ve learned to go with the flow and just enjoy it.
I thought I would be the type of mom who called the pediatrician over every bump, bruise, and behavioral change. And I thought I’d be a germaphobe, a hoverer, and a micromanager of all things parenting. And while I have certainly had a few minor freak outs, for the most part I’m pretty easy going. It’s a nice change. It feels very freeing.
As far as being a stay at home mom goes, I decided pretty early on that even though the title is “stay at home” – we were going to do anything but. I know there are different schools of thought on this – some people hibernate for the first few months, and some moms prefer to keep things on a tight schedule. But I learned pretty quickly that being a control freak only led me to frustration.
I took Cullen to Starbucks when he was three days old. And every day since, we’ve been out and about – enjoying and exploring the world. He’s an incredibly social little guy, and I can tell he gets restless and bored if we’re at home for too long – just like me. We have an incredible group of friends who have become a second family this year. I can’t say enough about the bond between moms at this stage (and likely at any stage) of motherhood.
I haven’t had much alone time, or time for personal hobbies and things this year. That’s something I’m try to improve as things move forward. But honestly, I really really love being at home with Cullen, so it doesn’t really bother me. I’m planning to do another “day in the life” type of post soon, showing a bit more of what we do at this stage. Staying home with him has been the most rewarding experience of my life. I know it’s not for everyone, and that doesn’t mean that some days don’t feel very very long, but I also know that these earliest years are just a small piece of a much bigger puzzle.
One year later, I look back at photos of Cullen as a newborn, and think about those early weeks and months. I feel sad that I have already forgotten so much. One of my favorite parenting clichés is that “the days are slow, but the years are so fast” – and man, is it so true already.
I have bad days here and there. I get overwhelmed and stressed, I take it out on Cullen and Casey, and I huff and puff and think that there’s no way things will ever be better. And then I have a good day. Followed by lots and lots more good days. It’s easy to let the hard days stand out in your mind, but I go to bed every night and remind myself just how damn good the good is. It’s the kind of good you can feel in your bones.
When I was pregnant, people told me I would be tired. That breastfeeding would be a challenge, that baby clothes would be outgrown instantly, and that little boys pee in your face during diaper changes. But no one told me that the first year of parenting can involve both the brightest – as well as the toughest – times in a marriage.
I have always believed (and still do, actually) that Casey and I have a really special relationship. Meant to be, soul mates, and all that fluff. Long before becoming parents, I also knew that when we were good we were really good, but when we were bad we sure knew how to battle.
Become parents together has strengthened that bond tenfold, and deepened our relationship to levels I didn’t know existed. I can feel Casey squeezing my hand during labor. I can see him sniff Cullen’s hair when he kisses his head. I can hear him reading a bedtime story through the other side of a closed door.
But it wouldn’t be fair to reflect on this year and only mention the parts that make it into photos. Between long days, late nights, and little relief, it is easy to let things like resentment and competition creep into a relationship. We went through a few months that were really tough. But we kept working at it – determined to learn to be better. Better communicators, better spouses, better parents, better people.
While I certainly wish I could take back some of my harsher words, I know we are both much stronger for having gotten through it. I learned a lot about my husband and my relationship, and subsequently – about myself – in the process. I know there will be more challenges and hurdles that lie ahead, but right now it’s all warm and fuzzy.
And I think really, that’s the big takeaway I have at the one year mark. I could go on and on for pages about every detail of parenting and motherhood. But really, it all comes back to one thing – it’s been a pretty incredible year. Not a perfect year, but really really good.
And so I’ll wrap these ramblings up with one more thought…
My favorite time of day with Cullen is first thing in the morning. He greets me with a huge, playful smile, and throws his arms around me when I lean down into his crib. He spends the first half and hour or so of each day playing in his sunroom. I sit back and lean against the wall, still waking up from what never feels like enough sleep.
He plays independently – stacking cups, moving blocks, stacking puzzle pieces. The blue peg in the yellow cup. The red block on the windowsill. Stack, stack, tap, tap. I sit and watch him, and think about how beautiful it is to have the innocence and purity of a one year old. He knows enough to feel happiness, joy, and laughter. But he’s still naïve enough to never feel self-conscious or embarrassed. He doesn’t care that he’s in a big goofy diaper, or that he has outrageous bed head. He’s at this amazing age where he seems to only be able to soak up the good.
As parents, we assume that we are the teachers. Our job is to guide, to nurture, and to support. So that is what we do. But I realized this year that Cullen has plenty to teach me too. He has taught me to slow down, to let go, to brush off the bad, and to soak up the good.
Here’s to the first year of many!
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That was glorious, and so honest. Beautiful.
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Such a great post. I have to say, I so appreciate your honesty. It really hit home to see that someone that seems so perfect and has all their ducks in a row has hard days too. I have been feeling less than adequate as a wife and mother lately and its just comforting to know I am not the only one who has “bad” days. Thank you!
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I think this might be one of my favorite posts from you. :) Keep soaking up the good!
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It really is crazy how fast time flies after you have a child. I look back at pictures of the first few days of our now 7 month-old’s life, and I can’t believe she was ever that small. And yet, at the same time, it feels like almost yesterday that I was finding out I was pregnant in the first place. Ah, motherhood contradictions. :-)
Glad y’all have had such a magical first year!!
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I agree with Elizabeth, this is probably my favorite post I’ve read on here. Thank you for your honesty in what life has been like this first year as a Mother!
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What a blessing. You have such a way with words (probably why you write eh?)lol I have loved following your journey. Photos, posts… etc. Here’s to many many more! <3
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Wow, Emily. One of your best posts. It resonates with me deeply. The innocence and pure happiness of a child this age (or 14 months in my case!) truly is astounding. I do my best to try and soak it up!
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This might sound really weird, but it is so great and refreshing to hear that you and Casey “know how to battle” and that you go through rough patches in your relationship. It is so easy to read about someone else’s life in a blog and, while you know you’re only seeing the things that the writer chooses to share with you, compare your life to theirs.
Thank you for choosing to share your life with us through your blog. I have loved reading about your journey over the last few years; the running and racing, the cooking and creating, being pregnant, and learning how to gracefully (from my point of view) accept that life is going to change and you have to just go with the flow. I can’t wait to keep reading and see where life takes you!
Also, how’s the breastfeeding going now that you’re at the one year mark?
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Thank you! I am 36 weeks pregnant with our first (a boy). I sit here and try and think of how my life is going to change and it’s scary, exciting and overwhelming all at once. I’ve heard many good things and twice as many bad things to expect. This post was more than just a few words- you let us into a part of your heart from the past year. Thank you for sharing your life and feelings without the need to sugarcoat your experiences. Reading this makes my heart full of hope for the year to come. :)
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I love the section about the struggles in your relationship with Casey. My husband and I are very similar in that we love strongly but we also fight strongly. Compared to our friends we have gone through some very different and crazy challenges during our relationship and especially during our marriage. At times I’ve been embarrassed to admit just how low our relationship has sunk, but then I realized that it’s not right or even reasonable to compare our marriage to anyone else’s, because we have gone through things totally unique to us. And possibly, in spite of the rough times, we are stronger than a lot of them because of it. I think realizing that you have had rough times, and acknowledging the struggles, means you are paying attention and looking for way to do better. Whether it’s parenting, marriage, or even a job.
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Your most beautiful post to date!
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hands down my favorite post. absolutely and incredibly beautiful <3
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I loved reading this post. Your transperancy is so refreshing, and I hope you know what an inspiration you are to all of us that hope to start families one day! You certainly give me hope that I will be a good momma and will also be able to balance that with a career and personal interests, if it all plays out that way :)
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What a beautiful post. Made me tear up. Molly just turned one as well and its been an amazing and terribly hard year all at the same time. But at the end of the day we created this beautiful, curious, brave, smart, hilarious little human being. And it doesn’t get much better than that.
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This made me tear up! My little guy turned one last week, and we’ve been thorough a lot of the same things. It’s great to hear about the good, the bad, and the ugly as a reminder that we all go through it!
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This was so beautifully written. As you may have experienced at some point as a blog reader yourself, I have found myself unexpectedly invested in the lives of you and your family. Thank you for providing your readers with a small window into your lives and journey. I’ve so enjoyed reading along and hope you continue to share little snippets for years to come. All the best to all of you!
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What a wonderful post! This will be so lovely for you to look back on many years from now. I look forward to a little changing my perspective one day :)
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This post brought tears to my eyes! Your story makes me so excited for that stage in my life.
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So proud of how you wrote this post–open and honest, as you always do. We’ve had such similar experiences over the first year of our babies’ lives and I’m so grateful you’ve been there for me along the way (and I hope I’ve been there for you!) Here’s to many, many, many more years to come.
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You are an amazing writer, and this post brought me to tears!
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Thank you for not glossing over the difficulties that the first year brings to a marriage/partnership. While in one sense you get closer but in another you become strangers. It was tough to separate ourselves from parents and spouse. It’s a day to day learning experience for sure.
I agree with this being one of your best posts yet!
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What a beautifully written post, I cried, because my son (who is 5 months now) teaches me something EVERY SINGLE day! Thanks for your words and honesty, and for letting us in your life!
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What a beautiful post! Just what I needed today to remind me to keep things in perspective.
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if you’re baby isn’t the cutest, I don’t know whose is
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Loved reading this post. :)
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so.beautiful. keep up the good work, mama!
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Aaaaaaaaand I’m crying. Thanks a lot. :)
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This post brought a huge smile to my face as well as a few tears along with it. Even though I’ve never met you, I see a lot of myself in you. As we expect our first baby in April, I hope to be as wonderful a mother as you are. Thank you for sharing the good and the bad, but also how amazing motherhood is. I can’t wait to be a mama! I’m also curious, how did you find your group of mom friends? That’s something I hope to find after our little one comes!
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You really do have a way with words! Marriage is hard enough without children and I know that once they’re thrown in the mix it has to be even more challenging. I wish other bloggers would be more honest about how it changes once a baby is born. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies. You are blessed!
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oh the toll that adding a tiny little human takes on a marriage! From the first couple of blissful days when you’re drunk on hormones and can’t believe that you and your partner made this perfect little miracle to the sleepless nights and snapping at each other to diving (not always evenly) and conquering (or battling). It’s a challenge, to say the least. But, like you, I feel like we’re better because of it. I just hope I still feel this way after a second kid :/
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ugh, why am i sobbing like a crazy person?! i think this sums it all up perfectly!
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This hit home for me! I have 16 month old twins and I related so much to this post! I wasn’t prepared for the tough times between my husband and I. It has been a challenge but like you I feel like our relationship is stronger for going thru the rough times. That’s awesome that you have a tight group of Mom friends, that is priceless! Hoping you are getting along ok without Casey this week!
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This made me tear up and I don’t even have a child! Beautifully written, thank you for sharing.
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So well-written :-) Thanks, Emily!
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Hi Emily,
What a wonderful post! I really appreciate your honesty and reflection. I also suffer from anxiety and type-A/OCD tendencies so I hope I can become the type of mother you are. Like you said, it must be so freeing to live with a more flexible attitude!
My husband and I are looking to start a family in the next few months and your comments about your relationship with Casey really caught my eye. I appreciate that you may not wish to share more about something so personal and private, but I’d really love to hear your insights on this. I want to do as much as I possibly can to keep my marriage strong. Would you consider delving more into what you learned from your whole experience? I’d really appreciate any advice you can offer!
Thanks Emily!
~ Nicole
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Beautiful post! I found your blog a couple months ago, and I am soooo glad. Reading some of your pregnancy and new mom post made me much less terrified of having kids one day. Thank you for sharing and being real!
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Such a beautiful post, I really enjoyed reading it! Makes me extra excited to welcome my first baby this Feb!
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This was lovely! I’m not a wife or mom (yet), but really appreciated this!
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Love this post, Emily! We have a 6 month old baby boy, so it has been fun to read your blog to know what to expect as he grows up. I stay home with him and also work full time from home and can relate to so much in this post. I rarely comment but your blog is so raw and real, especially since you’ve had Cullen and that’s really hard to find in blog land. Oh and I adore your recipes!!
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this was really inspiring and insightful- thank you so much for sharing.
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Such a fantastic post to read. I have been following your blog for quite some time, and have always appreciated your honesty. It makes me feel better knowing that it is normal for couples to experience some hurdles with their first child – but that it can be overcome. I can’t wait to be a mom… and I completely agreed when you said “that these earliest years are just a small piece of a much bigger puzzle”. You are such a fantastic mom to Cullen!
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So beautiful, Emily! This post has a great message for everyone, parent or not, I think. You seem to always know just how to how to put into writing what you’re thinking & feeling. Congratulations on the first year of motherhood! :)
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eyes are full of tears. beautiful emily and i’m so happy for you. i could close my eyes and picture you during your morning time with cullen that you describe.
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You made this new momma cry (lets be honest that isn’t THAT hard to do these days!) with your beautiful words. Even though I am only 3 months into the whole motherhood experience I can so relate to the emotions you have expressed. Even the painful ones really resonate with me. Thank you for writing such a beautiful and honest post.
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Emily, quit making me cry at work!! :) You are so good at putting your thoughts into words that can be conveyed through your blog. I applaud all that you’ve went though this year and have felt while reading that you master EVERYTHING you set your mind to. Keep on, keeping on is all I can say. Enjoy!
PS. You’re little boy is sooooo darling. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVe that last photo of him. He reminds me sooo much of my little brother Max. He is 13 yrs younger than me and I babysat him when he was Cullen’s age and he looks so similar. I remember touching his tongue and thinking when it isn’t slimy anymore that must me he isn’t a baby anymore.
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Beautifully written inspiring post that actually made me cry! Your so open and honest…the emotions just pour out of your words!
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I’m days away from the birth of our baby boy, and your insights on your experiences over the past couple of years have been invaluable to me. Thank you so much for sharing.
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Such a lovely and honest post. It’s incredible how much Cullen has grown and changed throughout the past year. He is absolutely adorable and hard not to fall in love with from the computer screen! I love reading about your adventures with him and look forward to reading more.
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Such a touching post! Really, great job writing it. This makes me excited to be a mother. <3
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Awesome, awesome post. I couldn’t have said it better myself.
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Fabulous post. What brings tears to my eyes many times (as a mother) is the pure innocence that I see in my boys and I want it to last forever. Being a mom really does change you…for the better most definitely!
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So beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story – your heart – with all of us.
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Amazing and honest post Emily!! Children, even the second and third in my case, bring challenges to a marriage. I like to describe what parenthood does to a marriage as, “only the strong survive.” A little harsh, but so true. If a marriage doesn’t have a strong base it won’t last through parenthood. Does it take work, communication, compromise, etc. – Yes! Does it ever end? No! Is it worth it? Yes, as long as you remember/reflect on the good.
With that said, I am so guilty of not expressing honestly to family and friends how tough parenting is on a marriage. Probably because I’m afraid to being judged. But we all should be open about those challenges, as well as the good stuff.
Here’s to many more good years.
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Beautiful post! I appreciate your honesty so much and that’s the main reason I love your blog. (In addition to the yummy recipes! Made the lentil quinoa cranberry loaf yesterday and it was DIVINE.)
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Well said!
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Best post…ever! Thank you for your honesty. I’m not a mother, so I don’t know how hard, yet rewarding, that can be. But it is so nice to hear you say that you & Casey have your less-than-stellar moments. It’s easy to read blogs, where people post only “sunshine & rainbow,” and forget that we are all real people in real relationships. Here’s to many more years for your sweet family!
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What a great post! Your honesty about the hard times is so refreshing. Sometimes I think I should stop reading blogs ‘cuz they’re always sunshine & roses & end up making me feel bad about my humdrum life. I certainly wish you & your family all the happiness in the world, but I appreciate you letting us all know that you go through difficult times just like the rest of us. Thanks Emily!
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Thank you SO much for this post Emily…i have big tears in my eyes because you made me feel ‘normal’.
I have a one-year old as well and i have to say the hardest thing from this year is the toll it has taken on my husband and my relationship. Like you said, no one told me how hard it would be on the two of us. Actually, we are going to ‘see’ someone about it next week because it hasn’t gotten better yet:( I am SO happy you guys are in a great place, that is very encouraging. Love, love, love this post:)
And thanks again for such a beautiful post, as always.
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This is so perfect it made me cry! I could go on and on but I’ll leave it at that :)
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I enjoyed reading this immensely!
My spouse and I just started talking seriously about “the next step,” and your posts came at the perfect time.
Beautiful words and such honestly.
Thank you! <3
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A very emotionally honest post. Thanks for sharing. Being parent is not an easy job, but you both surely handled it more than well :)
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So beautiful and lovely! I love your honesty-you are a great mom! : )
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You are such a lovely writer Emily :)
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I’m crying. What a BEAUTIFUL post!
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This is such a wonderful post. I, like you, am an organizer, a bit of a control freak, and a highly-motivated person with my own set of goals. It has been so enlightening to watch you take on the role of mother. I have been reading since you were about 3 months along with Cullen, and each post gets better and better. (As an English teacher, I also love being able to “hear” your voice in all of your writings.) Thank you for sharing this honest look at the good and bad with the blogging community. I look forward to motherhood more and more with each passing year due to people like you. :)
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Thanks for your honesty…
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<3 loved this : It’s the kind of good you can feel in your bones.
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What a beautiful post. You have an amazing little family :)
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What a beautiful post! I’ve never commented before but I felt compelled to let you know how much I loved reading it!
With only 1week till my due date it couldn’t have come at a better time!!
Thank you for sharing:)
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Thank you for such a beautiful post! As a single woman who plans to have a family one day, I love your honest portrayal of motherhood. It makes me really excited for when it’s my turn :)
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I read your blog ALL THE TIME but never comment but had to on this post. I have a 13 month old monkey and I feel like I could have written this post (although not as well) word for word. Everthing you said about letting go, marriage struggles, learning from the baby is all so true. So well written. Your little guy is adorable and you guys make a great pair. Good luck on year two ;)
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I love how honest this post and you are, especially about marriage. I feel like bloggers often portray only the good and it makes you stand out and connect with readers much more. It’s nice to hear when you have a bad day bc that’s life! Sooo refreshing! Ps he is sooo adorable:)
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Beautiful post, Emily! By far one of my absolute favorites.
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This is a really cool post. I am a newlywed, adjusting to that change, and wondering how in the hell one adds a baby in there… thanks for your honesty.
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Loved everything about this post! You are an amazing woman and mom!! Being a mom myself, to two little boys, I can relate and truly believe that….
” While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about” – Angela Schwindt
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I loved reading this! Thank you for sharing!
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Wow, that brought tears to my eyes!
You are such a phenominal writer! Thank you for putting that into words. It really reflects a ton of what I feel :-) <3
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What a beautiful post! I too appreciate your honesty. You are a wonderful writer. I’m a sahm of 2 and my second just celebrated her second birthday. Birthdays always make me emotional reflecting on the past year. Parenthood can be a roller coaster but I’m so blessed to be on this ride. Some days are hard but seeing that smiling face of your little one makes it all worth it. Thanks for the happy tears you brought me too in this post! Btw, love the last pic of Cullen. So cute!
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While I’ve always known that I’ll be a mother someday, the thought still, at 29, completely terrifies me. The whole taking care of another human being thing, to be exact :) And especially since my coworkers (gotta love them) spend our lunch hours telling me how exhausted they are as parents and for me to enjoy my freedom while it lasts.
But this post (and numerous others you’ve written) make me to incredibly excited to be a parent one day. I know it’ll be scary and exhausting and new territory, but will be worth it and then some!
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Thank you for being refreshingly honest. Our first child had some issues we had to work through, and I felt that made our relationship much stronger. However, when we had our second, it almost tore us apart. It’s hard to put into words the good, the bad and the ugly, but you do such a wonderful job without placing blame and yet looking forward. Thank you!
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Oh wow. This post touched me so much. I’m engaged and getting married next year, I’ve been reading your blog for a while and the way you described your and Casey’s relationship when you were planning your wedding/newlyweds is exactly how I would describe Josh and I now. I feel like we really are perfect for each other, we’re all about spending quality time together and genuinely are each other’s best friends. We’re at least five years away from kids (at least that’s the plan) but I have always wondered what happens to relationships, even the strongest of ones, when a baby is introduced into the equation. I can’t tell you how much your honesty means to me, and how much it helps me feel more prepared for the road ahead. I really really wish more blogs, including my own had this level of honesty.
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Wow. Your love for your boy makes me SO excited to be a mom someday. Thanks for sharing such a real and heartfelt post!
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You’re such an incredible person! I think your posts have made us all fall in love with wonderful little Cullen! It’s great that you can reflect on all of the positives as well as the negatives.. takes a lot of bravery and many thanks for so much honesty. I’m looking forward to motherhood :)
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Love this and relate to SO much of it. (I was also really nervous while pregnant and have surprised myself by being a laid-back mom… I think when I met my daughter I just immediately sensed that she was tough and capable and would help me see what she needs!) Thank you for your honesty and congratulations on such a wonderful year!
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Loved reading this! Felt teary! Thanks for sharing! Your an amazing momma!
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I have some major anxiety issues that I am trying to work through. It is comforting to read about someone else who has had similar issues and was able to overcome them.
Great post!
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Cullen seems like one of the happiest babies I’ve ever seen. He’s all smiles!
Thanks for sharing such honest posts. I love how real you are.
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I have to thank you for your comments on marriage. Yours was always one I placed on a pedestal, while looking at my bumpy one with…I don’t know…fatigue? The first year was DEFINITELY hard on us. Which, don’t get me wrong, I expected, but it’s nice to hear that it’s not because our relationship is inherently flawed, but rather because it is TOUGH, and everyone is challenged by infants. Thank you for your reflection.
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Great post! I love how honest and reflective you are. One of your most touching posts.
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Really beautiful post. I have a 9.5 month old and relate on every level. Tearing up at work!
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Love the post & all the comments. I find everyone’s voices eminently relatable, there is so much genuine feeling and honesty! Thank you Emily for creating such a space with your blog.
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I love this and I love that you pointed out that having a child is way hard on even some of the best and strongest marriages. I second that one. Funny also, I was thinking today how I’m a lot more relaxed as a mom than I thought I would be. YAY! :)
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I love all of your gorgeous photos, they tell such a beautiful story. Such a wonderfully honest post, thank you x
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I’ve really enjoyed reading all your motherhood posts and I’m just a newlywed college student:). I always tell my husband, I want to be a mom like Emily. :) I LOVE how involved you are with Cullen.
I hope to be a stay-at-home mom one day, and your posts just encourage my desire even more.
Keep up the great work!
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Wow. What a beautifully written post. Although I am not a wife or a parent yet, your words struck home when you spoke of your relationship. “We went through a few months that were really tough. But we kept working at it – determined to learn to be better. Better communicators, better spouses, better parents, better people.”
Thank you for your words, honesty and most of all the reminder to “keep working at it”.
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Beautiful!
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Oh, Emily! When you write about motherhood it always makes me grind to a halt and really take stock of all the blessings that I have, and my one year old. Always guts me. This post brought me to tears just as your guest post on Gina’s blog a month after having Cullen did – that’s how I found your blog. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us.
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I swear the only comments I make on your blog are that i love your honesty. I find most bloggers sugar coat things and it always seems so fluffy and happy-but us readers know it’s not reality. Thank you for opening a window into your life and not pretending life needs to be perfect. Life is hard. Marriage is hard. Raising a family is hard. Thank you for being open and honest. I wish more bloggers were the same way.
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I loved this post. My take away when you write about Cullen is to always try to keep that kind of appreciation for the small moments of parenting and to remember to find joy in parenting. Having 3 teenagers, I find this to be a challenging time. And it does go fast!
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What a beautiful post! Moved to tears! Thank you for being so honest about the hard parts of motherhood. Reading blogs about mothers one often thinks that it’s all rainbows and hearts for other couples and wonders what they are doing wrong when they hit a rough patch!
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Honestly, that was just such a great, heartfelt, make me smile post.
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This post made me tear up! I have a 9 month old and am already emotional about him turning one. What a year it has been so far! The part about you and Casey was so nice to read and I can relate. Thanks for opening up about the truths of motherhood!
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Wow! Your words are so beautiful–I loved your postpartum posts. And I appreciate your honesty. I’m a new momma myself and this new role is so rewarding, but so hard. Also, I’m quite amazed by how you find the time to write such wonderful posts :)
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My favorite post, not just of your blog, but of any. Your honesty is so refreshing. Unlike some other blogs that are crowded with ad links and seem designed primarily to boost the egos of the authors, the joy you get from motherhood, outdoor life and healthy cooking radiates from the pages.
My daughter is 6 now and reading your blog reminds me of the happy, careening toddler she was and the conflicting emotions I experienced going through those early years. I can tell you that it gets even better, if you can believe it! Soon Cullen will be able to tell you what is putting such a big grin on his face.
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Beautiful.
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You’re gonna make me cry with this post!
It’s true, parenthood makes or breaks your marriage. I think because as a parent your priorities are made for you and if your spouse disagrees there’s really no place for it…
My first year of parenting was so easy that it didn’t prepare me for giving birth a second time. Not only was my second son high needs but the amount of energy it took to care for him AND my two year old was so overwhelming that I definitely had some serious melt downs. My husband was such a key factor in the second labor and delivery as well as the months that have followed that I am so truly grateful we’ve taken this path. We’re stronger and certainly more in love than ever.
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A beautiful beautiful post!
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I love your motherhood posts. I feel very similar on many things but don’t put them into words as well. I find when I look back to before becoming a parent that I had no idea what to expect and no idea to even think of what kind of parent I would be. It is nothing like I imagined and a lot more frustrating but fun.
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Nice post. I will tell you something that you might not really like. You may choose not to display this comment. For future, do not under any circumstance disclose personal information. It s for your own good. Even if you go through harsh times, do not share it. Because people are mean and judgmental. It will be easier for you to get through hard times without the meanness of other people. That s what my mom taught me, and she was, oh, so right. Otherwise, you are truly blessed with a healthy boy(so many moms struggle with sick kids), a good looking husband;) and a nice place to live. That s more than a lot and many people dream to have what you have. Hope you have a happy Thanksgiving and enjoy your blessings!
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Such a beautiful post. You are so good with words. Congratulations on a wonderful year to you and your family!
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Great post! It’s so nice to hear an honest account of motherhood. Sometimes people make it look so easy, but it’s nice to admit there are hard times as well. I can see how the good times would definitely outweigh the bad!
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Aaaahh.. a breath of fresh air. I can’t tell you how much I enjoy your blog Emily. I’ve been reading for years and have taken many recipes from your kitchen, and now I am taking in all that you offer as a mom. I’ve got a little guy just about to turn 4 mo and find myself struggling some days. Reading about your day to day life helps me realize more and more that parenting is the toughest job in the world, and every day won’t be easy breezy. I, too, continue to work on being the best mom and wife every day. In a time where I find myself deleting beloved bloggers from my reader bc they present a very rosy picture of motherhood that makes me feel a tad inadequate, I turn to your posts more for a realistic depiction of family. Cheers to you. You are an amazing girl ;)
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Honest, raw and beautifully written Emily! I’ve followed your blog for several years now, and enjoyed many of your recipes. I’ve enjoyed reading about your life as a new mom, and watching your sweet little guy grow.
Your openness and honesty is so refreshing! :)
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I have been following your blog ever since before Cullen was born. It is so facsinating to see him grow up and to watch him change as you parent him. You are a great mother Emily, you should be very proud!
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Love this so, so much. Lovely reminder to always focus on the good.
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Emily, I have been reading your posts for the last year and a half, and have thoroughly enjoyed all of them. However, this post was the most perfect post you’ve written. I surely appreciate your candidness; you have such a beautiful life, and it looks even more so with the struggles revealed. Thank you.
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I loved reading this. It’s been so great to share in your parenthood journey. It makes me wish I would have documented G’s early days and weeks better. I think I’ll start doing a monthly update now…it’s never too late, right? I was just such a mess in those first few months :/
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So beautifully said! Made me tear up!
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